Before yesterday it had been several months since I’d even looked at this space. I knew once upon a time I had these things called “goals” but for the life of me I couldn’t remember what they were. So, for fun, I decided to take a look at where I was in December/January.
- Continue with the swimming but embrace taking steps backwards to eventually move forward. I.E. – slow down, not worry about a “workout” and focus on form. My form did get slightly better. And I certainly did not get faster.
- Actually DO THE STRENGTH TRAINING. Twice a week. Even if it’s just 15 mins of body weight work. – Nope. I don’t think I managed this at all. Maybe a once a week for a little bit.
- That whole grain free thing I mentioned earlier. I’m actually pretty excited about this one! – I did this for awhile. It was
hardinconvenient. But honestly? I enjoyed it. A lot. I felt better…until I didn’t. When I went through another period of semi-severe stomach issues, all that “felt good” (ie…didn’t make me hurt) was white bread. And soda. So yeah.
- Make the doctor’s appointment. – Yes. Ad nauseum. I’ve been, what? Four? Six times? This year. And apparently there’s nothing wrong with me except for high blood pressure. Which I’m now on meds for. Hello middle age. I wasn’t expecting you quite so soon. But the exhaustion? The stomach pains? No answers. At all. And while I can explain being TIRED right now, the bone deep fatigue/lack of strength/random stomach pains/inability to function is NOT normal or right. I’m weary, not depressed (despite my doctor’s repeated attempts to convince me otherwise). Completely sane? That remains to be seen.
- Get cute new glasses. I’ve had my current frames approximately ten years. I’m not even kidding. Done!
- Don’t start prepping/planning for the new semester immediately. Enjoy downtime a little longer. Read for fun some more. – I honestly don’t remember when I started prepping for the new semester. Maybe a week beforehand? I did drop a class though. I just couldn’t handle the load this time. And you have no idea how painful that was for me to admit initially.
And lest you think I have forgotten about the title of this post, I (conveniently) have three goals for April. The nature of goals may have changed somewhat in the last few months but they simmer in my head nonetheless.
- Attempt grain free again. If my stomach flares back up severely, it might be a connection to consider. (I have no idea what kind of connection.)
- Move. Don’t worry about scheduled, intense workouts. Hike, enjoy swimming some laps, do some push ups, whatever. But just move.
- Live “normally” for whatever that day’s “normal” entails. If I feel like pushing for a new time record up Tablerock, go for it without fear of what I might feel like the next day. If I feel like a low key walk, enjoy it. If I can barely move off the couch, nap guilt free. In other words, I neither want to live in fear of what I might feel like nor live in guilt for how I currently feel.